]]>That's how I got depression. I wish they know I'm suffering from depression and I wish they watch this!šš
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]]>Iāve ended up with a lot a problems because of this.
I feel comfortable saying that my counselor tested me for a few things and my guilt was at a higher level than both my anxiety and depression. Both of which are DISORDERS I have. Disorders. Theyāre out of whack bad. And for my guilt to be worse than those isnāt the best news.
Iāve ended up feeling that I canāt do anything, say anything, that I donāt deserve anything, and that Iām just here to be a scapegoat for past mistakes. I feel like a burden. Itās very unhealthy. Iām afraid to talk, interact with people or even go outside because I feel like Iām being judged by everyone around me (which is almost definitely not true). Iām paranoid of what will happen if I donāt please my parents. I canāt talk to them about personal issues or things Iām dealing with mentally because itās always āmy faultā and I should just āforget about it and move onā
I need to be their āperfect little angelā
Once I tried standing up for myself my dad got angry with me and said something like āI donāt like this new you. Why arenāt you like you used to be?ā (Cough cough a pushover cough cough)
Iām not even sure this is he right place to talk about stuff like this but…it feels good to get this out there.
I may delete this comment later.
]]>Itās really quite pathetic of me…
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